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Friday, January 15, 2010

one week in school's like how many months there-.-
what a way to start post after like... how long?

man school's really tiring
and now i believe why the j2s last year says that the j1 are so much more lax when i complained that our time table suck last year-.-
anyway
phy test today
so gonna fail and really fail. like left how many blanks?? o.o
stared at the ques and i went 'huh??!?!??' O.O???
ah wells

weird me dont really feel any stress now or any urge to study when i normally would
weird weird me
probably the time's not right? -.-

and school's kinda empty now
with only us the j2s left and i still feel weird being a j2
cos i dont feel like one and i dont think i act like one la -.-
but who cares
i wanna stay forever 17 :D
but thats if only i could :D
fortunately or unfortunately i'll be 18 this year and i seriously seriously dont feel like one
bring me to toyrus and you'll know why :/
HAHAH

OGL training tmr
wonder whats gonna happen
meeting wilson and julian for lunch but bird cant cos she've to reach earlier :/

nvm
going for cny shopping with darling and wife :D
cant wait:D
cos all the sats are packed with OGL trainings
bet orchard'll be filled with people
and i hate queues -.-
but nvm, for the sake of shopping its okay :D
hahaha

new year revolution is to study hard but thats provided i could when now i cant? -.-
and not let my itouch be any forms of distraction which is abit hard -.-
and i wanna change phone which apparently is abit hard -.-

but one thing i know for sure is that it'll never change :D

XOXO,
11:56 PM

Sunday, January 10, 2010

okay probably i should really update abit now since its the start of a new year :/

school's starting in like 1 day time??
better pray that i'll be fine on that day if not god knows what'll happen to me when i didnt take my medicine after going to see the doc
instead my bro and maid took it :/
...

predict that this year's gonna be tough man, seriously
probably would just scrape through or smth?
will see how

and on random thought, though i want my bday to come, i dont wanna be 18 ):
remaining at 17 is the BEST :D
hahaha

and i guess everything would remain the same as it used to be
take it or leave it :D

XOXO,
12:04 AM

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

avatar was nice :D

):)?

ah wells..

XOXO,
11:56 PM

Tuesday, December 08, 2009

tiring day
went out with bro and cousin to orchard
shopped at far east and im glad that i bought the stuffs that i wanted :D
met carol and bird for awhile then cont'd shopping
bought shoes, bag, jacket :D
walked over to ion and cont'd shopping
then met mummy
after that dinner and stuffs

realised i needa go order contacts alr
if not i wouldn't have any to wear when school reopens! :/

and yay, cant wait for class outing on thurs :D

though its kinda tiring
and all on my part
but i guess i am a happy person all over again (:

XOXO,
12:54 AM

Sunday, December 06, 2009

weird weathers nowadays.
but today was lucky enough to met a lady who was kind and initiated to share umbrella with her when she saw me walking under the rain carrying stuffs
hahaha
which made my day :D

rot at home the whole of today
and i managed to finish my drama, like after so long :/
and my twilight too :/
and i just requested from my brother to buy me new moon for x'mas :/
and he agreed :D

man im so behind time now..
finding shows to watch now. hmmmm..

and darling's going aust on mon!
BON VOYAGE!
remember the nuts entrusted by jas and i :D
hahahaha

will tmr be a better day?
):

i told myself ytd would be the last day, the last day i dropped because of you. thats a promise i made to myself and i really want to keep it. how it would be like the next time really depends. depends alot on me. hahaha this may sound ridiculous though, but i really mean it. living in denial is of such tiredness. hah. why does it seems like im not serious about this at all. hahaha. probably i've sort it through and understood what lies ahead of me. hahah, which is good..

and i really hope so.

XOXO,
1:52 AM

Sunday, November 29, 2009

led a normal day
went ikea and popular early in the morning
came home to realise bro was still sleeping -.-
seriously, pig.

noon great aunt came
dont know why i dont really like her :/
i now its bad but...

anyway
mahjong the whole of today
was really fun :D
cant wait to play again
maybe tmr?
and i received the edusve bursary letter :D

going out early in the morning w mum and grandma
insufficient sleep, again :/
hopefully mon'll be able to sleep in abit, abit longer :D
maybe twilight abit later
and yes!
i wanna watch new moon :D
though the sneaks are alr out :/

cant wait to go out with wife and darling next wed :D
and BON VOYAGE to bird who's going to bintan tmr! :D

i realise i tend to think alot when im alone. regardless where-school, home, bus stop, eating, wherever you name it. stuffs'll start to pop out from somewhere i dont know where and cause me to think alot. then, mood swing-.-
i realise i think alot ever since this year. i dont used to think that much into stuffs, taking things always easy(which may not be a good thing) and always laughing madly highly nonsensically with MAI :D i miss those times.

i wonder what might be happening at the other side of singapore, or maybe not to the extent, just a few kilometres away.
i wonder a few kilometres away, does minds think alike.
i wonder when'll be the day i pluck up courage from some green patch of grasses covered with flowers and string them into words.
i wonder what reaction i'll get from this courage of mine.
i wonder would things be the same after that.

let nature takes it course, carol told me that alot alot of times. i have to take that, but ive been enduring for quite some time alr, i really dont know when i'll just let go, cos i can feel that its fading. really. but, somehow, i just cant bear to let it go. i thought librans are supposed to be patient and balanced, im losing this patience of mine.

i really miss you mai ):

XOXO,
12:12 AM

Thursday, November 26, 2009

last day of school
met carol, wilson and cy in the morning
had lecture then drag drag drag ... -.-
after that like so scattered
what a day to end school for the 1st year ):

met darling for lunch today! :D
really bitched alot
or rather like updating
bombarded w stuffs, random stuffs:/

then went to ryan's house to find the guys
gosh man, i cannot stand the sun, SERIOUSLY!
literally melting, even the guys say so -.-

and and and
i love ryan's dogs! (only thing they lick alot :/)
but i love bird's one even more! :DDD
conclusion: love both :D
hahaha

then left for school
for ogl talk
man, i see a tough route infront of me man
like really
all those high expectations and stuffs
after that went to stadium and watched puyuan and cy having softball
their coach like fierce :/

what a way to end last day of J1..
well
everything's so not gonna be the same next year
people missing here and there
not seeing some people
you'll have those missing kind of feeling, somehow, and i dont like that, seriously
when you're used to seeing it come everytime, dropping some of them, and in the midst of the crowd, you'll see .
how different would it be when i could no longer see anymore? i dont like that.
come to think of it, when was the last time?

heard and saw something today which causes me to think again, from the already-decided-not-to-think-about-it-anymore me to the think-again me. since it could occur to some mos that its obvious, i doubt the smart you wouldnt not know at all, maybe the essence of it? idk.
but i realised no matter how many times i said that or decided to, i would always end up saying only, or maybe good enough, that'll last for a period of time, then poof, gone. i hate myself for being indecisive, being emotional at times. i doubt i could hold on to it any longer, maybe for a while, but definitely not long. cos i've cling on to it long enough, long enough to make one go bonkers. whats that, seriously.
i suppose leading a simple life would be alot better. and i wonder when i'll get a feel of that, again.

cant wait to meet up the rest soon :D

XOXO,
1:12 AM

Monday, November 16, 2009

breakfast with the usuals at 201 this morning :D
but stomach is always going against me on weekdays
i dont know why but specifically weekdays, yes :/

anyway
walked back to school
had lectures as usual and i realised i cant catch a single thing
which is dam bad
bleak future, yea
oh wells
we'll just see how as it goes ba..

after all the lectures had HAT talk w jeff and julian
didnt sign up in the end :/
then tmall for lunched at pizza hut with carol, wilson, jeff, julian and cy
talked about the most random stuffs ever -.-
and apparently i couldnt catch most -.-
but you know sometimes some things have to let me know
not that i want but ya ..
hahaha

rained the whole day, practically
nice weather to sleep :D

carol's bday celebration on sat :D

i realised,

im getting high in school almost everyday for the weirdest reasons ever, when no one acutally laughs at all.

and i think alot, coming up with weirdest reasons and assumptions ever, when maybe the situation isnt even suppose to mean that way at all. who knows.

and im kinda aimless. i couldnt decide stuffs for myself.

if i cant, then who could? ah wells.

why is it that sometimes when you've alr set your mind on something, somehow or rather kinda determine to do it, there's always some situation that'll happen then which causes you to think twice on the decision that you've just made. then you'll be half-hearted by then, thinking about what had happened before, changing your stand again. just cant stay rooted to the ground.

though i may seem like i dont really care about stuffs and laughing like some mad woman, it doesnt mean i dont have my down side. pressing and looking down the rows, it reminded me of alot of things, or rather to me, which may be significant, to me.

maybe maybe maybe, just maybe i'm thinking too much. everything lies with me, its just me and no one else.

XOXO,
10:39 PM