JARED JARED JARED

Sunday, November 29, 2009

led a normal day
went ikea and popular early in the morning
came home to realise bro was still sleeping -.-
seriously, pig.

noon great aunt came
dont know why i dont really like her :/
i now its bad but...

anyway
mahjong the whole of today
was really fun :D
cant wait to play again
maybe tmr?
and i received the edusve bursary letter :D

going out early in the morning w mum and grandma
insufficient sleep, again :/
hopefully mon'll be able to sleep in abit, abit longer :D
maybe twilight abit later
and yes!
i wanna watch new moon :D
though the sneaks are alr out :/

cant wait to go out with wife and darling next wed :D
and BON VOYAGE to bird who's going to bintan tmr! :D

i realise i tend to think alot when im alone. regardless where-school, home, bus stop, eating, wherever you name it. stuffs'll start to pop out from somewhere i dont know where and cause me to think alot. then, mood swing-.-
i realise i think alot ever since this year. i dont used to think that much into stuffs, taking things always easy(which may not be a good thing) and always laughing madly highly nonsensically with MAI :D i miss those times.

i wonder what might be happening at the other side of singapore, or maybe not to the extent, just a few kilometres away.
i wonder a few kilometres away, does minds think alike.
i wonder when'll be the day i pluck up courage from some green patch of grasses covered with flowers and string them into words.
i wonder what reaction i'll get from this courage of mine.
i wonder would things be the same after that.

let nature takes it course, carol told me that alot alot of times. i have to take that, but ive been enduring for quite some time alr, i really dont know when i'll just let go, cos i can feel that its fading. really. but, somehow, i just cant bear to let it go. i thought librans are supposed to be patient and balanced, im losing this patience of mine.

i really miss you mai ):

XOXO,
12:12 AM

Thursday, November 26, 2009

last day of school
met carol, wilson and cy in the morning
had lecture then drag drag drag ... -.-
after that like so scattered
what a day to end school for the 1st year ):

met darling for lunch today! :D
really bitched alot
or rather like updating
bombarded w stuffs, random stuffs:/

then went to ryan's house to find the guys
gosh man, i cannot stand the sun, SERIOUSLY!
literally melting, even the guys say so -.-

and and and
i love ryan's dogs! (only thing they lick alot :/)
but i love bird's one even more! :DDD
conclusion: love both :D
hahaha

then left for school
for ogl talk
man, i see a tough route infront of me man
like really
all those high expectations and stuffs
after that went to stadium and watched puyuan and cy having softball
their coach like fierce :/

what a way to end last day of J1..
well
everything's so not gonna be the same next year
people missing here and there
not seeing some people
you'll have those missing kind of feeling, somehow, and i dont like that, seriously
when you're used to seeing it come everytime, dropping some of them, and in the midst of the crowd, you'll see .
how different would it be when i could no longer see anymore? i dont like that.
come to think of it, when was the last time?

heard and saw something today which causes me to think again, from the already-decided-not-to-think-about-it-anymore me to the think-again me. since it could occur to some mos that its obvious, i doubt the smart you wouldnt not know at all, maybe the essence of it? idk.
but i realised no matter how many times i said that or decided to, i would always end up saying only, or maybe good enough, that'll last for a period of time, then poof, gone. i hate myself for being indecisive, being emotional at times. i doubt i could hold on to it any longer, maybe for a while, but definitely not long. cos i've cling on to it long enough, long enough to make one go bonkers. whats that, seriously.
i suppose leading a simple life would be alot better. and i wonder when i'll get a feel of that, again.

cant wait to meet up the rest soon :D

XOXO,
1:12 AM

Monday, November 16, 2009

breakfast with the usuals at 201 this morning :D
but stomach is always going against me on weekdays
i dont know why but specifically weekdays, yes :/

anyway
walked back to school
had lectures as usual and i realised i cant catch a single thing
which is dam bad
bleak future, yea
oh wells
we'll just see how as it goes ba..

after all the lectures had HAT talk w jeff and julian
didnt sign up in the end :/
then tmall for lunched at pizza hut with carol, wilson, jeff, julian and cy
talked about the most random stuffs ever -.-
and apparently i couldnt catch most -.-
but you know sometimes some things have to let me know
not that i want but ya ..
hahaha

rained the whole day, practically
nice weather to sleep :D

carol's bday celebration on sat :D

i realised,

im getting high in school almost everyday for the weirdest reasons ever, when no one acutally laughs at all.

and i think alot, coming up with weirdest reasons and assumptions ever, when maybe the situation isnt even suppose to mean that way at all. who knows.

and im kinda aimless. i couldnt decide stuffs for myself.

if i cant, then who could? ah wells.

why is it that sometimes when you've alr set your mind on something, somehow or rather kinda determine to do it, there's always some situation that'll happen then which causes you to think twice on the decision that you've just made. then you'll be half-hearted by then, thinking about what had happened before, changing your stand again. just cant stay rooted to the ground.

though i may seem like i dont really care about stuffs and laughing like some mad woman, it doesnt mean i dont have my down side. pressing and looking down the rows, it reminded me of alot of things, or rather to me, which may be significant, to me.

maybe maybe maybe, just maybe i'm thinking too much. everything lies with me, its just me and no one else.

XOXO,
10:39 PM

Saturday, November 14, 2009

PW's finally over yesterday :D
im glad that i didnt screw up as badly as i did on the dry run day, at least ytd was abit better?
and i got kinda high after OP
like seriously :/
after that met wife and darling for 鼎泰豐 and swensens :D
heard some bad news though ..

then we walked around and saw weiler :D
after which went to find usual people after wife and darling left for suntec.
heard about their OP and stuffs but carol wasnt there
then we went to shop for carol's present :D

home-d but mood was kinda screwed for the night
so yea..
just hope that you know, rw.
ya

went out to celebrate carol, cy and jeff's bday today
FUN
watched 2012 omg i love it :D
vvvvv nice!
still think that 10 bucks was worth it :D
dine at pepper lunch after that((:
though in betweens wasnt quite happy but its personal so ya
overall i still had FUN :D
cos i was practically laughing the whole day
which i believe i do everyday :/
HAHAHAH

shall post the photos when i get it on fb :D

i shall not cry over minor stuffs anymore, i hope.

XOXO,
11:19 PM

Monday, November 02, 2009

toy r us last fri. hahaha

i must say i was childish in there:/

anyway

today's chi paper suck

maybe for me

ah wells

its over

now pw

went 18 chef with the usuals

then..

nvm

then bird went to repair her phone

cy wilson and i were like... uh huh nvm

hahaha

home-d

2nd draft i&r by tmr

nothing much to post

tmr shall be a better day:D

XOXO,
5:05 PM